第三十七章：身份
Chapter 37 Identity
梦醒后，又是一个清晨。
After waking up from the dream, it was another morning.
宽敞豪华中流淌着一丝暧昧气息的卧室里，空调的冷气充斥着房间内的每一个角落，遮阳窗帘紧紧闭合着，即便是墙上的挂钟时针已经指向了上午十一点钟，但因为窗帘的缘故，室内的光线依然是一片黑暗。
In the spacious and luxurious bedroom, there was a trace of ambiguous atmosphere. The cold air from the air conditioner filled every corner of the room. The sun curtain was tightly closed. Even though the clock clock on the wall had already pointed to eleven o'clock in the morning, the light in the room was still dark because of the curtain.
细密的沙沙声在窗外不停的响起，伴随着细细的风，极具节奏的从高空中呼啸着落下，时不时的落在窗户上，啪啪作响。
The sound of rustling could be heard from outside the window. Along with the thin wind, it whistled down from the sky in an extremely rhythmic manner. From time to time, it would fall on the window, making a crackling sound.
窗外有雨。
There was rain outside the window.
眼神有些茫然的赫连晨曦拉了下身上的被子，将身体蜷缩起来，眨了眨眼睛，眼神终于慢慢的有了焦距。
Helian Chenxi, whose eyes were a little blank, pulled down the quilt on her body, curled up her body, blinked her eyes, and her eyes finally began to focus.
她小心翼翼的挪动了下身体，双腿那种怪异的酥麻感让她小脸微微一红，轻轻抬起头，身边男人那张棱角分明的脸庞在视线中变得愈发清晰，即便是沉睡状态，这张脸庞依然带给赫连晨曦一种坚毅如岩石如钢铁一般的感觉。
She carefully moved her body. The strange numbness in her legs made her face slightly red. She gently raised her head. The angular face of the man next to her became clearer in her sight. Even in a deep sleep, this face still gave Helian Chenxi a feeling of determination like stone and steel.
她挪移身体贴住身边的男人，暖暖的，有种十足的安全感。
She moved her body close to the man beside her, warm and full of security.
赫连晨曦眼神略微恍惚了下，一时间有点恍如隔世的错觉。
Helian Chenxi's eyes were slightly dazed, and for a moment, she felt as if it were fora lifetime ago.
她甚至还以为这是两个多月前身边的男人刚刚夺走自己第一次的时候。
She even thought that this was when the man beside her had just taken her first time more than two months ago.
那个时候，赫连晨曦抗拒过，挣扎过，最终变得顺从，但无论过程如何，从开始到结束，她都没有什么反感。
At that time, Helian Chenxi resisted, struggled, and finally became obedient, but no matter what the process was, from the beginning to the end, she did not have any aversion.
只是有种说不清道不明的茫然。
It was just that there was an indescribable bewilderment.
成为林轩辕的女人...
Becoming Lin Xuanyuan's woman...
她曾经无数次的想象过，她和林轩辕究竟会如何发展，两个多月的时间，赫连晨曦以及赫连家族得到了太多太多，甚至比她最开始最大胆最狂野的想象的利益还要多，但却始终没有得到来自战神王的温暖。
She had imagined countless times how she and Lin Xuanyuan would develop. In more than two months, Helian Chenxi and the Helian family had obtained too much, even more benefits than her most bold and wild imagination at the beginning, but they never received the warmth from the War God King.
让无数人嫉妒的眼睛发红的利益背后，是两个多月没有见面没有电话没有短信的冷落。
Behind the benefits that made countless people jealous red eyes, was the coldness of not seeing each other for more than two months without a phone or text message.
甚至很多时候，赫连晨曦都觉得自己并不是属于林轩辕的女人，只是一个陪他上过床的女人而已。
Most of the time, Helian Chenxi felt that she did not belong to Lin Xuanyuan. She was just a woman who had slept with him.
尽管从理智上来说，两个多月战神王府给予赫连家族的补偿已经足够，可站在感性的角度上，赫连晨曦内心的幽怨却越来越多，甚至内心不止一次大骂战神王混蛋王八蛋。
Even though logically speaking, the compensation that the Prince of War God's Manor had given the Helian family over two months was already sufficient, but from an emotional point of view, the resentment in Helian Chenxi's heart grew more and more, to the extent that she even cursed the bastard Prince of War more than once in her heart.
两个多月的时间，甚至每次洗澡的时候，赫连晨曦都会赤裸着身体站在镜子前，看着从小到大都让自己感觉骄傲的完美身体自嘲自己究竟哪里不够好，让那个混蛋只玩了一夜就玩腻了。
For more than two months, even every time he took a bath, Helian Chenxi would stand naked in front of the mirror, looking at the perfect body that had made him feel proud since childhood and self-mocking himself where he was not good enough to let that bastard play for only one night and get tired of it.
赫连晨曦有自知之明，她从一开始就没有奢望过有一天能够跟林轩辕像是普通小夫妻一样嬉笑怒骂，但她也没有想过会是这种状态。
Helian Chenxi was self-aware. From the beginning, she had never expected to be able to laugh and curse like an ordinary couple with Lin Xuanyuan, but she had never thought that it would be like this.
林轩辕的冷落，一个普通SSS级和震世级的差距，一个特勤系统的豪门跟战神王府的差距，让赫连晨曦清楚的看到了自己和这个男人之间的距离。
Lin Xuanyuan's indifference, the difference between an ordinary SSS grade and a world-shaking level, the gap between a rich family with a special service system and the Prince of War's mansion, made Helian Chenxi clearly see the distance between herself and this man.
那是一种甚至连上个床都小心翼翼的苦楚。
It was a kind of suffering that even had to be careful on the bed.
说不清道不明，别扭的辗转反侧夜不能寐。
She tossed and turned awkwardly and couldn't sleep at night.
沉默中，赫连晨曦再次抬起头看了看沉睡中的林轩辕，轻轻叹息，红润的小脸上带着一丝茫然。
In silence, Helian Chenxi raised his head again to look at Lin Xuanyuan, who was sleeping. He sighed softly, his rosy face carrying a trace of confusion.
到了现在，她自己都说不清楚自己究竟对林轩辕是什么感觉。
Even now, she couldn't tell how she felt about Lin Xuanyuan.
有仰慕，有崇拜，有愤怒，有委屈，有不甘，但更明显的，是一种不受控制的憧憬。
There were admiration, admiration, anger, grievance, and unwillingness, but what was more obvious was an uncontrollable longing.
憧憬她和林轩辕的以后。
He looked forward to her and Lin Xuanyuan's future.
赫连晨曦突然觉得自己是个很虚荣的女人，对于权势滔天的战神王，对于神秘而无敌的战神殿下，她确实是喜欢的。
Helian Chenxi suddenly felt that she was a very vain woman. She really liked the powerful War God King and the mysterious and invincible War God His Highness.
可上了两次床之后，她突然发现，自己喜欢的这个男人，跟所有人对这个男人的了解是一样的。
But after going to bed twice, she suddenly realized that the man she liked was the same as everyone else's understanding of him.
自己喜欢的是他的滔天权势，是他的绝世强大，是他的神秘冷酷。
What he liked was his monstrous power, his peerless strength, and his mysterious coldness.
自己知道的这些，也正是外界所有不熟悉战神王的人也都知道的，自己唯一比别人了解的多一点的，或许就是战神王就算在床上的时候，也同样是勇猛无敌的。
The only thing he knew more than anyone else was that even when the War God King was in bed, he was still valiant and invincible.
至于他展现在自己人面前的另外一面，外界人不知道，她赫连晨曦同样也不清楚。
As for the other side that he displayed in front of his own people, outsiders did not know, and she, Helian Chenxi , did not know either.
可即便是这样，自己仍然是无可救药的喜欢上他了。
Even so, he was still hopelessly in love with him.
喜欢到了昨晚对方只是发了个酒店房号的短信，自己就精心打扮一番前来赴约的地步。
She liked it so much that last night, the other party only sent a text message with a hotel room number, so she carefully dressed up and came to attend the appointment.
随叫随到吗？
Is it on call?
“我在你心里到底是什么？”
"What am I to you?"
赫连晨曦躺在床上，紧紧贴着林轩辕的身子，声音微弱的喃喃自语道。
Helian Chenxi lay on the bed, clinging to Lin Xuanyuan's body as he muttered softly to himself.
“是女人，我喜欢的女人。”
"It's a woman, the woman I like."
原本安静睡着的林轩辕突然开口，语气冷静，呼吸平缓，没有半点刚刚睡着时的迷茫，他睁开眼，看着面前迷茫无助又带着些幽怨的脸庞，眯起了眼睛，淡淡道：“你在胡思乱想什么？”
Lin Xuanyuan, who was originally sleeping quietly, suddenly spoke. His tone was calm and his breathing was gentle. He did not feel the slightest bit confused when he fell asleep. He opened his eyes and looked at the helpless and resentful face in front of him. He narrowed his eyes and said indifferently, "What are you thinking?"
“没，没什么。”
"No, nothing."
赫连晨曦脸色一变，明显吓了一跳，紧紧贴着林轩辕的身体下意识的向后靠了靠，打算离开他，但看见林轩辕皱了皱眉后，又咬着红唇重新贴了回来。
Helian Chenxi's expression changed. He was obviously shocked. He subconsciously leaned back against Lin Xuanyuan's body, intending to leave him. However, when he saw Lin Xuanyuan frowning, he bit his red lips and put them back on.
做这个动作的时候，赫连晨曦终于肯定，自己是真的无可救药了，昔日的骄傲，尊严和矜持，在所有人都可以看得到的遥远距离中变得不堪一击，在这种拥有和归属的男女关系中，她彻底成了一个弱者。
When she did this, Helian Chenxi finally confirmed that she was truly hopeless. Her pride, dignity, and reserved demeanor of the past had become fragile in a distance that everyone could see. In this kind of relationship between a man and a woman, she had become a complete weakling.
这甚至不是什么恐惧和敬畏，而是一种潜意识中对强者的顺从。
This was not even fear or reverence, but subconscious obedience to experts.
女人天生就有着崇拜强有力的男人的本能。
Women are born with the instinct to admire powerful men.
身为帝国特勤系统第一美女，三十岁就达到SSS级的赫连晨曦之前一直对这句话不屑一顾，但现在想到这句话，却只想苦笑。
As the number one beauty in the empire's secret service system, Helian Chenxi, who had reached SSS at the age of 30, had always disdained this sentence, but now that she thought of it, she only wanted to smile bitterly.
林轩辕也在苦笑，他伸出手一把搂住赫连晨曦光滑温润的身子，让对方紧紧贴在自己身上，平静道：“你很怕我？”
Lin Xuanyuan was also smiling bitterly. He reached out and hugged Helian Chenxi's smooth and moist body, letting him stick to him tightly. He calmly said, "Are you afraid of me?"
赫连晨曦缩在林轩辕怀里，伸出手紧紧搂住他，小手无意识的抚摸着对方身上纵横交错的伤疤，沉默着摇摇头。
Helian Chenxi hid in Lin Xuanyuan's arms and hugged him tightly. His small hand unconsciously caressed the crisscrossed scars on his body and silently shook his head.
这种她自以为坚强的倔强，落在林轩辕眼里，却显得更加让人怜惜。
This kind of stubbornness, which she thought she was strong, was even more pitiful in Lin Xuanyuan's eyes.
“不怕我，那就是怪我了。”
"If you're not afraid of me, then it's my fault."
林轩辕的语气淡淡的，伸手玩弄着赫连晨曦的头发。
Lin Xuanyuan's tone was indifferent as he stretched out his hand to play with Helian Chenxi's hair.
特勤系统中女子本就稀少，而大多数女子都习惯性的留着短发，显得干练而犀利，但赫连晨曦却是个例外，她的头发很长，乌黑亮丽，看上去温柔而知性，但整体气质却是那种仿佛永远都不会被驯服的野性。
There were very few women in the secret service system, and most of them had short hair that was accustomed to being capable and sharp. However, Helian Chenxi was an exception. Her hair was very long, dark and shiny, and she looked gentle and intelligent, but her overall temperament was that of a wild type that seemed to never be tamed.
很勾人。
Very attractive.
非常勾人。
Very attractive.
林轩辕当初第一次见到这个女人的时候就想要她，最初没什么保护欲望，只有十足的征服欲，他就是想拥有这个女人。
When Lin Xuanyuan first saw this woman, he wanted her. At first, he didn't have any desire to protect her. He only had a desire to conquer her. He just wanted to have this woman.
这只最简单的思维方式。
This is the simplest way of thinking.
无视一切让人目瞪口呆的身份差距和后续影响。
Ignoring all the gaping identity gaps and their aftermath.
简单粗暴到了让赫连晨曦至今都没有完全适应。
It was so simple and rough that Helian Chenxi hadn't completely adapted to it.
赫连晨曦还是没有说话，沉默着伏在林轩辕怀里，乖巧，温顺，沉默。
Helian Chenxi remained silent, silently lying in Lin Xuanyuan's arms, obedient, docile, and silent.
林轩辕嘴角带着一丝无奈，哄女人，向来都不是他擅长的事情，他轻轻拍了拍赫连晨曦光滑的后背，继续道：“这段时间很忙，冷落你了。”
Lin Xuanyuan's lips curled into a hint of helplessness. Coaxing women was never something he was good at. He patted Helian Chenxi's smooth back and continued, "I've been busy these days. I've left you alone."
“你...你在忙什么？”
"You … what are you busy with?"
赫连晨曦迟疑了下，终于鼓起了勇气，问了一句，她在林轩辕怀里抬起头，眸子清澈的注视着这个占有了自己一切的男人，语气中充满了她自己都不清楚的期待。
Helian Chenxi hesitated for a moment and finally mustered up her courage. She raised her head in Lin Xuanyuan's arms and looked at the man who possessed her with clear eyes. Her tone was filled with expectation that she herself did not know.
赫连晨曦甚至决定，只要对方给出她一个足够合理的解释，她就愿意相信，无论如何，这起码是一个可以说服自己的理由。
Helian Chenxi even decided that as long as the other party gave her a reasonable explanation, she would be willing to believe that, no matter what, this was at least a reason that could convince her.
林轩辕犹豫了下，他原本并没有打算将自己的双重身份告诉其他人，如今知道他的双重身份的，全部都是皇族的高层和王系的领袖，根本没有泄露出去的可能，而如今林轩辕对自己林小草的那个身份该如何最大化的利用，已经有了一个明确的方向，在这样的前提下，这样的双重身份就更是拥有保密的必要性。
Lin Xuanyuan hesitated for a moment. He originally did not intend to tell anyone about his dual identity, Right now, those who knew of his dual identity were all the leaders of the royal clan and the royal family. There was no possibility of leaking it out. And now, Lin Xuanyuan had a clear direction on how to maximize the use of his identity as Lin Xiaocao. Under such a premise, such dual identity was even more necessary to keep it a secret.
不过他看到赫连晨曦的眼神，内心却没由来的一颤。
However, when he saw Helian Chenxi's gaze, his heart couldn't help but tremble.
这一刻，林轩辕终于察觉到自己变了，变得比之前更为的心软，冷却的血液和内心似乎逐渐在散发着温度，他比之前要更加在乎拥有的一切，这所有的变化，并非是因为入世的时间已经超过半年，而是因为，自己的人生中已经有了新的希望。
At this moment, Lin Xuanyuan finally noticed that he had changed. His heart was softer than before. The cooled blood and heart seemed to be gradually emitting warmth. He cared more about everything he had than before. All of this was not because he had entered the world for more than half a year, but because he already had new hope in his life.
“这两个月，我没在神舟帝国。”
"I haven't been in the Divine Continent Empire for the past two months."
林轩辕犹豫了下，终于开口吐出一句。
Lin Xuanyuan hesitated for a moment before finally spitting out a sentence.
赫连晨曦的眼眸微微亮起，眼神灼灼的看着林轩辕：“去哪了？”
Helian Chenxi's eyes lit up slightly as he looked at Lin Xuanyuan with a burning gaze, "Where did you go?"
话一出口，她顿时就觉得自己有些得寸进尺，很小心的看了林轩辕一眼，柔声笑道：“如果不能说的话就算了，没关系的。”
As soon as she said that, she immediately felt that she was pushing her luck. She looked at Lin Xuanyuan carefully and smiled softly, "If you can't say it, then forget it. It's fine."
“那个谁...”
"Who …"
林轩辕将怀里的女人搂紧了一些，很努力的思索着：“那个谁，是我废掉的，他现在还好吧？”
Lin Xuanyuan hugged the woman in his arms tightly and thought hard, "Who is that? I crippled him. Is he alright now?"
他记得自己最开始执行任务的时候，帝国曾经还派出过三个特勤精锐去协助自己，那三人都是出自赫连晨曦领导的蝴蝶中队，其中那个副队长还被自己随手废掉了，林轩辕本来想说他的名字，结果话到嘴边，那个被自己废掉的副队长叫什么名字，他却不记得了，最终说出来的只能是那个谁。
He remembered that when he first started his mission, The empire had once sent three elites to assist him, The three of them were from the Butterfly Squadron led by Helian Chenxi. The vice captain was also crippled by him. Lin Xuanyuan wanted to say his name, but when he said it, he couldn't remember the name of the vice captain who was crippled by him. In the end, he could only say who it was.
“谁呀？”
"Who is it?"
赫连晨曦有些茫然。
Helian Chenxi was a little confused.
“就是江明石那个外甥，好像是外甥吧，你那个副队长，我忘了叫什么名字了，是我废掉的。”
"It's that nephew of Jiang Mingshi's. He seems to be nephew. I forgot his name. I crippled him."
林轩辕摇了摇头道。
Lin Xuanyuan shook his head.
“......”
'"..."
赫连晨曦猛然挺直了身体，睁大眼睛，瞠目结舌的看着林轩辕，一时间竟然忘记了自己做出这个动作后是何等的春光大泄。
Helian Chenxi suddenly straightened his body, opened his eyes wide, and stared at Lin Xuanyuan in astonishment. For a moment, he actually forgot how much spring had flowed out after he made this action.
“你...你...你是在说赵云杰？蝴蝶中队的副队长赵云杰？”
"You … you … you're talking about Zhao Yunjie? The vice captain of the Butterfly Squadron, Zhao Yunjie?"
良久，赫连晨曦才结结巴巴的问道，一脸的难以置信。
Helian Chenxi stammered for a long time, her face filled with disbelief.
“是吧？”
"Is that so?"
林轩辕随口道，对方叫什么，他还真忘了。
Lin Xuanyuan said casually. He really forgot what the other party's name was.
“可可可那是林小草废掉的，是帝国的超级特工，号称修罗的林小草废掉的，那是如今隶属于帝国的唯一震世级高手！”
"Coco was crippled by Lin Xiaocao, a super agent of the empire. Lin Xiaocao, known as the Asura, was crippled. He was the only World-shaking expert that belonged to the empire!"
赫连晨曦俏脸都涨红了，语气异常急促。
Helian Chenxi's face turned red and her tone was exceptionally hurried.
“我就是啊。”
"I am."
林轩辕笑道，他坐起来靠在窗口，点了根烟道：“哪有这么多所谓的震世级？我和林小草都是二十三岁，两个二十出头的震世级？这种事情概率太低了一些，只有不了解内情的人才会相信。”
Lin Xuanyuan smiled. He sat up and leaned against the window. He lit a cigarette and said, "How could there be so many so-called World-shaking Ranks? Lin Xiaocao and I are both twenty-three years old. Two World-shaking Ranks in our early twenties? The probability of this happening is too low. Only those who don't understand the situation will believe it."
“可可是...”
"But …"
赫连晨曦结结巴巴，很明显，她也属于那种不了解内情的人，绝大多数都属于这个范畴，两个二十出头的震世级，几率虽然很低，可整个帝国将近十五亿的人口，出现几个惊才绝艳的天才，还是可以接受的，人们也下意识的愿意接受这件事情。
Helian Chenxi stammered. Obviously, she was also one of those people who didn't know the inside story. Most of them belonged to this category. Although the chances of two World-shaking Level cultivators in their early twenties were very low, it was still acceptable for a few stunning geniuses to appear in the entire population of 1.5 billion. People were also subconsciously willing to accept this matter.
可只有少数几个了解巅峰法有多么残酷的人才会明白，这种事情不止是低几率，而是完全不可能的几率。
However, only a few people who understood how cruel a peak technique was would understand that such a thing was not just a low probability, but a completely impossible probability.
眼下黑暗世界中虽然还在讨论着战神和修罗实际上是一个人的可能性，但就算是发出声音的这些人，内心实际上也是不信这种言论的，他们之所以说出这些，全部都是怀着不可告人的目的。
Although the possibility that the War God and the Asura were actually one person was still being discussed in the Dark World, even those who spoke did not believe this kind of words in their hearts. The reason why they said this was all for ulterior motives.
皇族这两年的处境很危险，也很关键，皇族的敌对势力自然想将修罗和战神合并成一个人。
The situation of the royal family in the past two years was very dangerous and critical. The opposing forces of the royal family naturally wanted to merge the Asura and the War God into one person.
这个消息一旦证实，米国绝对不会放过北方皇族。
Once this news was confirmed, the United States would definitely not let go of the northern royal family.
如今黑暗世界的这种言论，都带着很明显的嫁祸性质，而且随着皇帝在米国的强势出手和米国政府的沉默，白宫国宴之后，这种言论已经越来越没有市场。
These words in the Dark World now carried a very obvious nature of framing. Moreover, with the Emperor's strong action in the United States and the silence of the American government, these words had become increasingly unmarketable after the White House state banquet.
可谁都不会想到的是，这种原本出于嫁祸性质反驳出来的谣言，恰好最直接的击中了整件事情的真相。
However, no one would have thought that this rumor, which had originally been refuted out of the nature of framing, would hit the truth of the whole matter directly.
这也太荒诞了...
This is ridiculous...
赫连晨曦呼吸急促，努力的摇了摇头，语气艰难道：“你为什么要用两个身份？这有什么意义吗？”
Helian Chen Xi's breathing was rapid, and she shook her head with great effort. She said with a difficult tone, "Why do you use two identities? Is there any meaning in this?"
“当然有意义。”
"Of course it's meaningful."
林轩辕淡淡一笑，随手弹了弹烟灰：“最起码，如果没有林小草这个虚拟身份的话，赫连家族这次想要拿到九州监狱的位置，基本上是不可能的事情。”
Lin Xuanyuan smiled faintly and flicked his cigarette ash. "At the very least, without Lin Xiaocao's virtual identity, it would be basically impossible for the Helian Clan to obtain the location of the Nine Continents Prison this time."
“什么意思？”
"What do you mean?"
赫连晨曦一脸茫然。
Helian Chenxi was at a loss.
林轩辕没有回答，只是眯起了眼睛，眼神中光芒闪烁。
Lin Xuanyuan did not answer. He only narrowed his eyes, his eyes flickering with light.
或许林轩辕自己都不知道，这一刻，他眼神中的奸诈和冷漠，像极了年轻时代的皇帝。
Perhaps even Lin Xuanyuan did not know that at this moment, the treachery and indifference in his eyes were extremely similar to the emperor of his youth.
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